Now that I got a song stuck in your head...
I really do feel so much better. The best I have felt all year - Yah! Two weeks ago we spent a week in Lincoln with Dr. Sara and Dr. B. My testing was all over the place. In some ways my body is doing really well. However, it was also freaking out a bit, which is why I was feeling so miserable. It was determined that I'm making great progress, but my body doesn't know what to do with it. It was over stimulated and hadn't been responding to the attempts to slow it down.
Dr. B. brought some special things with him and after the first day I had so much more energy. So much so, that dad and I went shopping and got me two dresses...one for my cousin's wedding and other just because it was so pretty. It shall be my Easter dress!
I can't say my treatments that week were pleasant. In fact, they were quite terrible. However, I feel so much better. There was one point where they were going to redo a treatment they did the day before. I didn't want them to because I still hurt from the first treatment (read: slightly traumatized). I had a choice and could have told them no, but saying yes would greatly increase the speed of recovery and give me visible results immediately. I sucked it up, fought the tears, clenched my teeth and white knuckled it while they let me have it. The results were a large elephant climbing off my chest! We go back to see Dr. Sara soon. I pray that the next trip increases my progress and feeling of well being and doesn't take me out again!
This past week has been an emotional roller coaster and a time of celebrating life. Monday there was a memorial service at the church where I work. Tuesday was another memorial service at church, this time for a good friend who went home much too soon (in my humble opinion). Wednesday morning good friends had a beautiful baby girl who I can't wait to meet. Wednesday night I spent with my cousin and his fiance' planning their wedding ceremony. Thursday I worked so long I got exhausted and grouchy. It was only 3 1/2 hours, but for me that was more than pushing it! I came home, crashed in my comfy chair and listened to the rain, sleet and thunder. That brings us to today...
The first few times I woke up I couldn't quite make it out of bed. The weather had taken a toll on my body. When I finally did get up it was so incredibly beautiful outside that I had to capture it on camera! After I thought I was done taking pictures, mom and I were sitting in my living room watching the wind blow the chunks of snow and ice off the trees when suddenly the sun came out. It was glorious! The sun glistened off the ice covering the tree branches and they glowed. Mom and I both jumped up and ran to grab our cameras. The sun hid again by the time we got back to the living room so we sat and prayed it would come out again. It did and we were ready! If you have Facebook, you can click HERE to see the photographs!
On the local news and all over Facebook people were complaining about the weather. The winter storm was invading our spring. It was unwelcome. I want warm temps as much as anybody (probably more than most), but there was something about this storm that was breathtakingly beautiful. I have photographs from storms all winter, yet none are as spectacular as this. No matter how miserable it was, there was great beauty in it. It's a reminder to me that no matter how miserable life is, no matter how much we must suffer, there is beauty to be found. It is up to me to open my eyes and not only see that beauty, but appreciate it and thank God for it. I'm learning that the more difficult the suffering, the more unwanted the storm, the more beauty is found there...if we have eyes to see it. I leave you with a verse that jumped out at me in my time with the Lord this week. I pray that it will encourage you. May we all be able to say this in the midst of our struggles...
"At least I can take comfort in this: Despite the pain, I have not denied
the words of the Holy One." ~Job 6:10, NLT
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