Joys and Pains

Hello dear friends!

This picture is from my brother's wedding. Well, actually Isaac and Brooklyn got married in December. Since they got married at the courthouse this was a vow renewal ceremony. They wanted a chance to celebrate with family and friends and do all the wedding stuff! It was a beautiful day and even though we decided not to have it in our yard as planned (we thought it was going to rain) we still got to take lots of pictures outside in the yard.

Many of you have been asking me how I have been feeling. Well, the weather and weather changes affect my body a lot and for the past week or two it has been rainy with storms mixed in there. So needless to say, I have been very sore. However, I am praising God that the sun has been out the last two days and I am feeling much better. Unfortunately storms are in the forecast again for the rest of the week! There are some other things as well (without giving you too many unnecessary details!) that are not so encouraging. I have a feeling I know what my doctor is going to tell me next time I see her and it isn't good news. I have my next appointment a week from today, next Tuesday (June 17) at 2:30pm. I would appreciate your prayers for wisdom for the doctor and for me to be able to accept whatever it is she tells me. I also know that God can still heal me completely and I am still praying for that. Won't you pray with me?!

Also pray for finances. I am stuck between a rock and a hard place with health insurance. I am currently on major medical only and have been looking for something that will cover me better. However, I have been denied by several insurance companies even though I have not been diagnosed with anything. My bills from the last set of tests was over $3,000. I need good health insurance and I have no idea how to get it at this point!

So, that is my update for now. Not much news until next week, but I wanted to let you know what is going on and ask for your prayers. I am feeling stressed out knowing that my life will dramatically change next week. Either I will have to really get going on things so I can go overseas in February or I am going to have to figure out what God wants me to do with the rest of my life. (Okay, maybe not the rest of my life, but what next steps He wants me to take if I am to stay in the states for a while!) I am not a very "emotional" person. Okay, so I have emotions, but I am not very good at figuring out what to do with them or how to express them. Please pray that I would have good times with the Lord and outlets to express how I am feeling.

Although I do not understand what God is doing in all of this, I know that He has a plan and I can trust Him to bring me through it. It will not be easy and I will be discouraged at times, but I KNOW He is good and will use me to accomplish His purposes.

Thank you all for who you are and what you mean to me.